Saturday, October 31, 2015

Letting love in

Letting people in is something I have struggled with for so long. You let people in and get attached to them then they decide to walk away. You invest your heart and time and they decide you're not enough and you're left with all the pain. It gives us a reason to shut people out and keep to ourselves. 
Shutting people out keeps everything out, not just the heart ache. The best life has to offer us comes from the connections we make with people around us, people who love us, and people we love.
Life is absolutely messy and beautiful. I wouldn't change any of the pain I've had to go through. Without all of the pain and ugly things, we wouldn't appreciate the precious time and great moments we have. The beautiful moments that make everything worth it. The friends who would do anything for you, the people that you care for so deeply that you can feel it in your very soul.

Life doesn't get easier, but we get stronger. We learn and we grow together. Just look at how far you've come. The things you've achieved. You're doing a good job, and you're exactly where you are supposed to be. This is your life in this very moment. You have the power to change it, to learn from your mistakes, don't let them define you or break you. Don't shut out all the best times that have yet to come. They are coming. And one day you will look back on the times that you thought you couldn't take anymore. When you lost your dad, your family, your entire life changed, you left behind some good things, you left behind the things you thought you couldn't live without, when you decided to move on and let go, or when you decided to hold on. 
I've been through hell with my friends lately. Divorces, losing family members, moving away, going to school, leaving school, boyfriends, girlfriends, breaking up, long nights, night drives, heart-ache. I've seen them grow into the amazing people I am honored to call my family. We've lived together and learned from each other. And friends like that are what makes everything worth it. 
So hang in there, put it all out there, risk it all. It gets better. <3

***This is for my best friend, sister, and the one who taught me some of the greatest lessons about love. Thank you for standing by me.***